WELL, LOVE IT OR LEAVE IT, THAT DAY FINALLY CAME AGAIN, MY FRIENDS.
I prayed it would never come again, yet here we are. When people ask how we’re doing it, I normally respond,
“It’s SINK or SWIM:
Which would you choose? We SWIM.”
We always swim. Every day… until my very last, is a day worth swimming!
The first day of your first round of chemo, (after all the tests and waiting…waiting…waiting … ) to hear you get to start the treatment and get the show on the road, always seems kinda like the best and worst day of your life all wrapped in one! Especially when I’ve been down this road before. Lots of butterflies in your stomach, topped with a week or so with sleepless nights (not necessarily anxious, just plain awake and organizing your … sock drawer??), and throw in a psycholigicaly induced premeditated metallic taste in your mouth because you can already “taste” the chemo when you enter the infuision area. Or maybe that’s just me, cuz I’m a freak like that.
READY AS I’LL EVERY BE:
- I, personally feel kinda like that Adorably psychotic little Hamster, Rhino, on one of our fam favorites, BOLT. Just like Rhino did to his dusty ol’ hamster bowl before a rumble, It was me this time, practically slamming myself against the windows of the center… “LET IT BEGINNN! LET IT BEGINNNNNNN!”
IT’S A HOMECOMING OF SORTS:
- This place is like family to me. Last time I knew no one and my life very suddenly went in to their hands. How quickly they became my life support. Each one of them. Above, you see my first chemo nurse for this round , Round 1-Day 1 (September 15th), although I’ve known him since my last battle. He has such a heart of gold. Meet Grant👌 Grant never left my side. I had some unique pains in my back and began my typical clockwork nausea at the first drip of Taxotere, but he was there right with Lindsey, another rock star nurse, to monitor me, converse with my oncologist and his team and have regular visits with the Nurse Practitioner Sydney (who I loooooove) to stay right on top of their game. When I say they don’t mess around, they don’t mess around.
“YOU DOWN WIT MBP? … YEAH YOU KNOW ME! …
YOU DOWN WIT MBP? … YEAH YOU KNOW ME…
WHO DOWN WIT MBP? …. EVERY LAST LADY! “
Never alone. Friends and family can be there, but God is ALWAYS there: So the Hubs was laid up, sick in bed, the stress is finely setting in and going straight to his immune system. So this mama drove herself to chemo, but my YouNight sisters (Cheryl we’re signin you up BTW!) ANGELLE planned to come anyway, and DEIDRE called in the troops or did smoke signals, who knows with that woman! In no time, we had a revolving door party! It was such a surprise and such a fun distraction. (Thinkin Bob Marley’s –STiR it UP (click link to hear song) was my tune yesterday as we stirred up the infusion suite😁😂🎉)
- No matter how crazy the day it all worked out. Big guy upstairs even heard my concern to still “be mommy”. The dude had a 7:45 am oral surgery w anesthesia after other 4 sibs needed to be divided and dropped off to their schools before that, aaaaaand MamaBuna desperately wanted to be with her boy from when he drifted off (laughing from the gas😂) to sleep, to waking and, with a tear, asking me to leave to find and feed his pet unicorn. ??? HAHA! That was my cue👌. I could now slip out to hurry over to chemo while his sick daddy (yup for fun we added a cold into the mix to keep him out of MBP😩), & brought the dude to his godmother/pro nurse’s house to dote on him like he’s always wanted with her. Whew!
- Yesterday reminded me, yet again, of silver linings. Nearly every cloud has one. Making yesterday happen took, what felt like, a million moving parts for the many directions that our kids needed to be, much less the last minute curve balls sent in the last 24 hrs before. Deep breaths…it all worked out. Remember, God’s got this. He’s never panicked. It may seem like we have a chronic case of craziness in our house, a chronic case of sleepless little people, or you may have a chronic case of the Mondays at work, who knows? But whatever your CHRONIC case is, I raise you one, not in a better than type of speech, by any means, that’s not my style AT ALL. I will bet you though. Stay with me. I bet you to look at your chronic case whether it is an actual diagnosis or a regular daily situation through a different lens, one that is more like a colorful prism, or better yet A KALEIDOSCOPE! A kaleidoscope is interesting, colorful, full of wonder and everchanging with every twist. But, if you dont’ take the time to shine it in the light, you’ll miss it. It’ll just look like a pile of broken pieces of shapes and glass and jumbled colors with nothing much to see. But show it a little light, lift it up and out, and there… there suddenly it just became the most interesting spectacle around! Twist it! Turn it! It’s glory is endless! It’s all about perspective. It’s about perspective and the ability to reach out and look for it. It’s there. It’s always there.
“Cause every little thing, is gonna be alright!” – Bob Marley
(Or translate that … PHIL 4: 6-7)
God’s still singin to me in every difficult … & happy moment. He knows that music is so often my prayer. Singing is praying twice✌
So as this chemo ninja / platinum blonde on the outside (for at least a little longer)/wannabe Rastafarian/ who only knows what else on the inside (depends on my mood, really) … Signs off singin away while we gear up for more days back at the infusion suites,
I LEAVE YOU WITH 3 TIPS:
1-Pray TODAY, even if you just say “hi” (don’t wait ’till tomorrow) LIVE for today!!!
2- Make someone smile: If it’s doing an act of service, writing a REAL LETTER😱, or just smiling at random passersby. (No expectations for a response, just know you’re planting seeds IS the prize)
3- Become a ninja😂👍 (details below).
*One more Gratitude Gab:
Thank you to ALL for the jaw dropping love and support from ALL over!!! We can’t possibly thank you ALL enough, but in our best efforts toTRY, know that we spend every moment of our prayers praying for all of you, our Holy Ninjas, holding nothing back aaaaand intend to live now and always praying and paying it forward, as a family. We hope you JOIN in on our mission for families to help families in praying and paying forward for our ultimate dream come true. See BUNA’s HOPE PROJECT/non-profit for more info👍
With the courage of the ninja, the power and grace of God, and the trust and chill factor of our Marley tunes…. We (meaning w Big Guy upstairs) sooo got this!